Well, today was really boring and tedious. It wasn't unproductive per se, but it was definitely mind numbingly dull. I hate being so bored. I've been in a semi-bored melancholy general mood for a long time. There are ups and downs, my blogging shows as much. Yet, the underlying ennui is almost always there. That is something I must fix. How? I have no clue. Sometimes I think I do, but I really don't. That's what's so annoying. There is more to life than games, reviews and assistive technology demoing and advocacy. I'm bored of it more often than not. People tell me I do great things, but none of it seems great.
What would be great? Well, maybe coffee and a movie with a nice girl not affilliated with any of the above. That'd be great. I've done that a few times, it's good stuff. That was quite a long ago. If I could do that again, I'd appreciate it more. The whole I wish that I knew what I know now thing. I'm probably only making sense to myself, but at least I'm making sense to somebody. There's a lot of backstory that goes with the whole coffee with girls thing. I'm not sure how to explain it concisely. Basically, I stupidly invested a lot time in one girl, not so much for her, but for the idea of her. A fact I failed to see back then. I failed to see a lot back then. At least I learned some things, yay! Anyway, enough rambling.
Posted by Mike at April 1, 2005 11:03 PM