So, for the last few days I've had a fabulous cold. I've had far worse and I get them rarely, nevertheless tis' no fun having a cold. My last two posts have clearly reflected such. Having a cold makes me nervous and edgey all at once. It's a delightful combination of moods. I didn't used to get so bothered, but some years back I had a really unpleasant flu which was quite a reminder of one's own... frailty. Thus, I've been paranoid ever since about the possible results of a cold. It's all so Howard Hughes. Then, I get annoyed. Annoyed that I'm so uneasy. Annoyed that there's a lot I want to, but have yet to do. That's really annoying. On one hand, I've done so much. I've freaking photographed Dave Letterman. It's even a decent photo. Steve Jobs gave me his first and only interview regarding games and Mac OS X. Yet, sometimes I feel like none of that matters. I think there are other things that matter far more. It's those things I want, but ofttimes, not always, I feel like maybe I won't get them. Hence my recent edgey mood. One can't get something without working for it, but it's hard to work when one's in a poor mood. It's quite the lovely conundrum.
I'm feeling better today though, so yay!
Posted by Mike at March 26, 2005 10:14 PMColds naturally depress. Don't dwell too much on it.
Posted by: Eddie at March 28, 2005 10:45 PM